My sadhanas have been passing beautifully. I have had mornings of “I don’t feel like it” and I pushed through it. I had one day in which I wasn’t moved to practice or to write and I listened to that because what my body wanted was to be outside enjoying the sights and sounds of Rio and discovering new places. I took it as a lesson in the flow and ebb between extroversion and introversion. My practice and discipline of writing require me to spend many hours a week in an internal process. I am comfortable in this interior world. But a time does come when it best to be out and about, mingling with other energies and feeling the sun on my skin.
Nothing has arisen for me to write on in the past few days and I listened to that as well, rather than force myself to share out of some false necessity. These things we feel we “must” do or else. It is an awful use of energy when we get caught up in the “musts” and “shoulds” of life. I have been enjoying my new frame of mind that accepts life with ease. In any moment if I realize that I am not feeling something then I do not force it to be something it is not. It’s freeing.
What I have been working on is preparation for the first yoga workshop that I will teach in Rio, which is happening tomorrow. I am completely thrilled! And I am doing my best not to slip into a pattern of perfectionism and stress myself out in a mad process of being overly prepared. I know what I will teach. I know how I will teach it. There is that in me which wants to dictate down to the letter every word that I will say but I am reigning that overly controlling impulse in and saying “What will be, will be.” It will be perfect in any case.
This week has been a rash of creative bursts in which I have brought forth my vision for the meditation circles that I’ve been wanting to create. You can read about them on the Yogic Sacred Circle Series page if you are so inclined. I’ve also been writing a lot for three different projects – a work of fiction, that I describe as Neo-mythology, a work of non-fiction and a story for a television series. I woke up this morning needing to write it all down and get it out of my head. I am excited for all of them.
Life feels so rich with potential. Miraculous in its every manifestation, I greet each morning in gratitude and unreasonable happiness for what the day will bring.
In Peace & Perfect Love.
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